From fear to faith...

Fear gives birth to faith,,,
I thank God for letting me experience this is a short age...
Many are still stuck in fear , and their fear has made them bitter and pessimistic..
Those who have emerged are grateful for every experience and have no regrets..
All caterpillars must become butterflies... some wont if they resist the darkness and fear of the cocoon.

Dear Baby,

Always remember.. Face your your Fears...
Dont run away from them...
Your dad has helped me a lot in understanding this.
We will help you understand this together and may you find a good friends and teachers and a partner to share this truth with.

Dad and me both were fun loving in college and hard working when it came to studies.
We both wanted to achieve.

I was a bit restless and money minded. Dad is more calm.
I wanted to make a lot of money and take my parents abroad and have fun and wanted to buy them luxuries that they never had...
Little did I realise that all that parents want from their children is a hug, love and understanding... and a little time...
Parents become like small children when they grow old. At times they get too fearful and cranky,, their bodies become weak and they might not understand ..

Ok so let me not divert from the Topic.
Face your Fears.listen

Mummy and daddy we both had our fears when it came to careers.
We went thro a tough time...
Dad was stuck in Chennai in a tough job.
Mummy was stuck in Banaglore in a difficult job. I had written so many things I didnt know like programming languages in my resume and then I had to perform !
It was scary.. i know what it is to feel weak in the knees.. i was so full of fear..
But I learned and overcame... just like dad..he too finally got a new job in Hexaware, Bombay.

Ok, so career wise we worked hard and we did overcome fears which looked impossible...

Then mummy got a bit sick..

I had this fear that I would not get a baby....thats you : )
So I gave daddy a tough time to get married.

I dont know what i was so fearful... the movies, the serials on barren women, the media - the net !!
I had met some silly doctor and she had scared me too...
And I let my mind make mental movies...

But hats off to your Dad. By God's grace he helped and was ready to accept me the way i was... Oh God , i am so grateful for your daddy...

And here I am sitting with you in my stomach, typing this...
See my fear has made me strong in FAith..
That God heals...

I still fear a lot over your health...
Infact I have decided to write everyday to you, so that I overcome my doubts and teach , how good God is.

I had a lot of Gelusil and I am worried that it wont affect you.
But I trust God and I know he will heal us from our problems...


Jesus told us in Matthew 17:19-20 when he said "I tell you the truth, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, `Move from here to there' and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you." Faith as small as a mustard seed sounds a little like hope to me, and that's a good start.

Trust in the power of the Hold Spirit.
Dont give up...
NEVER LOSE HOPE.

God is Good... He does not think like a HUMAN...
Humans thinks only for his selfish fulfillment of their desires.
God thinks for the greater Good of ALL.

before you pray, truly forgive all you hold grudges against.
Give up all Judgement of people...
Accept, Respect and Understand All.

Your grand-dad (neil's daddy) said a beautiful line which i will never forget :
"We judge want we dont understand"
At times we judge God too and are unhappy with what happens in out Life.
remember everything happens for the best for those who love the Lord.

Love you my betu,
yours mummy...